inner drive

floorball. jazz. academics.

one
…step
.at a time

I can make this happen.

what is going to be

The week to come will mark the start of my season. Floorball tournament and Jazz concert. It’s going to be an exciting week ahead. But I know I’ve got to regulate myself. Because if I get too ‘emotional’ about things, I’d just fall flat on my face. For me, it’s mostly a psychological battle – not to get drowned in worries or even excitement. I’ve really got to keep the balance.

And actually, I wish the next 2 or 3 weeks would move slower. When I’m in it, I’ll set aside my work for the time being. So I don’t want season and concert to end. Because that’ll be when I’d be left with nothing but studies, and doing nothing but catching up.

I think sometimes, we’ve got to learn to let things pass and to accept things even if they are not done our way. Sometimes I think my committment level can be my undoing. Being overly-enthusiastic about something might make me seem over-bearing. And especially when others are satisfied with that given standard, I think I should just accept it as well, instead of imposing my views.

you know, the things that people do or say can give me confidence in who i am. may be, what i can do is to give someone else something better – an easier life to live.

because you have lived

“ To laugh often and much; To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others; To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded. “ — Ralph Waldo Emerson

I will find a renewed spirit.

Tomorrow’s a new day

I realised I haven’t been feeling much happiness of late with school and work. And it’s only the start of my jc life, only the start of my 17th year.

I wonder sometimes what kind of a life I’m leading, but then I can find no answers to my questions now. So I’m just setting aside those questions and those worries, in the hope of finding that meaning sometime down the road. It’s just a belief that keeps me going.

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”  — Maria Robinson

Funny. Where should I go from here?

i’m saying things in short spurts now, because i just don’t seem to have enough time.

school’s picking up, and work is coming. but i’m getting left behind. i feel shitty, to be honest, not completing my work, not knowing what the teacher is talking about because i haven’t studied. after all the huge amounts of motivation and belief at the start of the year, i’m already starting to lose it. i’ve got to get myself back up, before i find myself in the pits.

floorball season is starting in 2 odd weeks. and that leaves us with less than 5 trainings. it’ll be quick, real quick. but from now to then, we’ve got real pressure coming. jazz concert is in 2 weeks too, and right now, we’ve got too many things to do. finding the motivation and determination to keep going is trying…

too many worries, too little time, too much work. sigh…

i want to shout

I’ve been feeling all ‘wrong’ of late.
I need to stay true, to the people around me, to myself and to who I am.

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With the way school is turning out, it’s easy to get drowned. But I’m jut willing myself to keep that head up.

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It will probably help if I put less head and more heart into what I do.