Big Hug

finding warmth, finding comfort.

Beating to our chosen rhythm

School work is setting in and it’s time to get back to reality. After doing nothing very much for 3 months odd, it’s back to what we are most familiar with. Already the pace of lectures threatens to leave us behind. Fortunately, i’ve had enough motivation to get down to studying thus far – it is a good start at least. But we will all need to keep that up and to keep that momentum going. It’s so easy to just not study.

School life is setting in too. It’s still odd and weird but at least the start of proper lessons means i have less time to myself – which at this point in time, is a good thing. I really can’t guess where i’ll be in a few weeks or months time. Right now, i’m still closing myself in to the school at large. I’m still keeping within and should i say, hiding between, the people i know best. Whether that will stay, i don’t know. But right now, i can’t foresee that changing.

But talking to friends has made me remember that we’re all chasing dreams, each for ourselves. Or rather, because no one else can bite the pain for us, i think we can only make choices for ourselves and no one else’s. As much as i would have liked to join council for the community of friends possibly going there, we have to go our own paths. That is what i’m thinking for now at least. But either way, we’re all making our own sacrifices to get to where we want. 4As would look beautiful, but it has to come at the expense of something else. As people always say, “leave with no regrets”. But would i be satisfied with just 4 straight As? I’m not sure myself.

May be I (or we) are thinking too much and are being too afraid of the two year journey ahead. It’s a new beginning for everyone of us, and we just have to survive and succeed in the path we choose.

time to fly

so floorball it is. floorball and jazz. council is no longer in my options list. and no, i shall not be tempted further.

for all those who spoke to me, who encouraged me, thank you so much. for those who believed in me and continue to, thank you so much as well. it makes a difference to my life.

time to focus on floorball and fly.

choices.

I don’t know how to put all this in words. There are simply way too many considerations…

When I went to sleep last night, I thought I would simply go along with floorball since everyone around me was talking about buying sticks and training for the season. As of now though, I’m swinging towards jazz and/or council.

Everyone I’ve spoken to has added a different perspective to this and there simply is no perfect choice. But what my mum told me today is that sometimes I just have to make a decision and play along with it. The alternative to making a decision today is indecision – which isn’t going to make things any better. Let whatever may happen, good or bad, happen and then move on from there. Especially at this level, falling into an ill-situation as a result of ill-decision can be taken as a ’self training’ – knowing that I have (or not) the ability to cope with ill-situations. That is what my mum said and it makes a lot of sense.

Thank you for those who have made the effort to help me make a more principled decision. Do let me know if there’s anything else you think I haven’t considered. I’m going to decide something by tonight. I must.

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In other matters, O’rientation went well. It was a great pleasure.
O’omchichiOmchi!