Now, interclass isn’t going too well. Not for me at least. Should have won two games, but we dropped two points each game instead. I should have scored, but I didn’t. Damn. Must get in some frame of mind before the next match, or else we’d be quite over and done with. To think of it on the bright side though, if we continue with this sort of brialliant play, may be we might just win some of those difficult encounters. May be.

The work’s gonna start now. After 3 really relaxed weeks following the end of term 1, its really back to work. There isn’t much we can do is there? Just hope to make the most of this remaining year. Its the last and I really want to make it worth it, make it good – to my best. Let’s go man.

And I was still wondering last night, if I’ve changed, if the sort of person I am has changed. I havent been able to decide. For in recent times, I’ve had fewer (almost none) problems or dilemas of that sort. Which is good – I hate having to worry about all sorts of ridiculous things. But what is worrying me now is that I’m increasingly becoming very practical in my thinking. Is that good? May be it’s like Marx’s Marxism theory – we will all evolve to a stage of this and that. Or may be, I really am changing the way I think about things. Its not to say that that’s bad. But like I said, I don’t want to move to far away from what I was. Not too far.

inter class has gone quite well so far, minus the last match today. i’m playing reasonably well and i’m quite glad about that, though i think i can be much better still. just hoping we’ll make it to the knockout cup thingy thing. its hard to fight the big classes now, but may be in the knockouts we have a better chance. we’re just doing the best with what half-strength squad we have now, as with most other classes i think. just hope we’ll pull through. let’s go 4k!

i’m tired of saying elearning is quite ridiculous. teachers assume we’ll be home all day to do their work. so there’s much much more. and its just quite a killer. oh well… this is the last year of elearning. so be it then. but i’ve gotta get more work done. had a really really long break last week… and i’ve got to get back my momentum. this is the last year man. come on!

am i becoming less thought-full? am i becoming less worrisom? am i becoming less sensitive?

it’s not that i like being a worrisom over everything, but i don’t like being a “happy-go-lucky” sort. its very not-me. and i find it very superficial to be someone like that. may be in recent times, there hasn’t been much need to ponder over stuff. may be. but i just don’t want to change in this aspect, not that much at least.

i’ve been getting quite caught up in the recent going-ons around me. its been clogging up my mind quite some bit. whether that’s good or not, i don’t know either. but its been in my mind for quite some bit. may be its normal, considering my position. and since there hasn’t been that much homework of late, i’ve found the time to browse around. but oh wells… we’ll see how it’ll develop.

This 16th Birthday

This week has just gotta be the best week of my life. I’m running out of words to describe it, seriously.

First the tennis team gave me the gold (to be honest they really “gave” it to me) – thats got to be one of the best birthday presents I can ever expect. Then there was the cake on wednesday, the slippers on wednesday and the cd on thursday. And to top it all of? Dinner! The dinner was really great. God knows who’s idea it was, to tell the whole fish&co. its my bday. But anyway, it was really fun. Thanks 4k and aaron! And those really cool birthday wishes, even from people I least expected, thanks too!

This has just gotta be the best birthday I’ve ever had. Since the childhood parties, I havent had much bday fanfare in a while. Till this year.

This 16th birthday was the best!

awesome!

Today was fantastic. All the congratulations, the smiles, they were really heartwarming. The support, as we said, was really felt by every member of the team. Thanks guys.

And even better was the birthday celebration I had from my class. The present was mind-blowing. Its really nice and wonderful (though the money is heart-aching too ><). The cake was great too. I really really love this class so much. I don’t know what else to say…

Thanks guys!

I just can’t help but keep thinking about the championship point. I can’t help but recall how dom sliced then volleyed and then how acs(i) hit that final ball out. It was just so sweet. The tennis team has of course been really high. We’re going totally nuts, celebrating our triumph. But i guess, its well deserved. Great job guys!

Gold!

I just want to re-live those moments. The moment when the championship point was played, the moment when I jumped up and punched the air in triumph, the moment I shook your hands, the moment I sat on their shoulders… This was such a memorable finals for me. As captain of the team, I had this great rush of pride and glory when we won it all. I won’t replace it with anything and I certainly won’t give it up for anything less.

But I really couldn’t have done this without my team. While I was dunked, while I sat on their shoulders, while I received the Challenge Trophy for the school and for the team, I honestly didn’t forget my team. I couldn’t have done this without my team. It was they who made the difference, it was they who won it, it was they who gave it their all. This team has been so amazing. There was so much belief and confidence, the way you took on the pressure and fought it, I can only bow down to you guys. You really won this for me – I couldn’t have won it. The win you people gave me really made my personal sufferings, realisations and hopes all worth it. All those troubles I went through, those personal difficulties, was only bearable because I believed you guys would make up for it. And you did.

To 4k, I really have got to thank your so much. I am so glad I requested for your to come and support me support my team. You guys really made this day a more memorable one. All that, to be honest, was a bargain for us winning the gold. I just love this class so much.

For the rest of the supporters and of course RIPB, I really couldn’t have asked for more. The support the tennis team received was seriously tremendous. The words of encouragement, the thanks, they really spurred me on. It has been the most support I’ve received in my 4 years here. And when better to receive it than on my last, gold winning, year.

It was really a hard-fought and hard-earned victory. I think the gold goes to everyone. Everyone made a contribution to us getting the gold. For now, its happiness and satisfaction. For now, its time for rejoicing in triumph. There is still the C Division to come. I hope to win a double gold for the second time, both when I was captain. It would be a great honour and again, my hounour.

In the end, I don’t have a doubt in my mind, I did my best – to the best of my abilities. I did all I could, as a captain of this amazing team, to spur you guys on, to keep you goin. Whether it really worked, I still don’t know. But I guess, all my efforts paid off, rather handsomly in fact. So what if I’m a non-playing off-court loser captain huh?

Thank you guys, once again. For motivating me, for encouraging this team and for supporting us all.

GOLD

the sun’s out

Tommorow is it. Postponed twice, after bad weather, i really think tomorrow will be a fine day. But while the sun may be out, i hope it’ll shine on our side, with its golden rays.

But i’m not gonna leave it down to luck. The rain has broken our momentum but i won’t let it stop us. Last year, our hopes of a gold were washed away. This year, i’m not going to let it happen again. Its really all about mental strength. Both us and them suffer the same break in our mental. But it is the team that can regain its strength, better and stronger, that will emerge victorious. Whether we want to get it, whether we want it more than them, is entirely up to us.

I’ve been thinking about what’ll happen after the match. In triumph or in tears, i don’t know. But i don’t want to think about all these. What is crucial is to focus on what is at hand. We have to put our mind and heart into this. If we want it, we have to face it and take it for ourselves. No one is going to give it to us.

I’ll do what i can. I’m not playing and really, there is a limit to what i can do once it all begins. But before that, i will give it my best shot. To bring the team’s mental back and the team spirit back. We have to, or we’ll have to give it away.

To the gold.

well?

its starting all over again. everything is gonna come.

but i really want to give it my best shot this year. so does everyone i guess. i really want to make the most of my last year here, academically and in my school life. i’ve got a bad feeling how i’ll react come year’s end, but there’s nothing i can do to stop time. so all that i can do, is to make the most of the last year i have in ri. i guess its the same for everyone.

i hope that’ll just keep me going for the really hectic 3 remaining terms to come.

there’s still lots to look forward to though. tennis is hanging in the balance and so are a lot of other activites. just hope to spice up my life here and there with these. though’ll it’ll mean more work, im sure i’ll enjoy it when i look back. its always the case.

well… i guess here’s to our wonderful and fruitful (i hope) remaining last year in this school.

this bugging holidays

i’m really waiting for the 18th of march. the gold has been at the back of my head all holidays. there’s so much to think about. i haven’t put much thought into how i’m gonna manage this “dejavu” finals. shazam has given me much advice and i hope to do better. i can’t let it slip – that i know and that i’ve said many many times. there’s gonna be so much going on that tuesday in and around me. we really have got to clinch it.

this hols has been really a weird mix. i’ve made a good attempt thus far, i must say, to make good use of my hols. just looking forward to sondre lerche this friday, its the only other thing thats happening that has nothing to do with school. i’ve been trying out something new, sort of. i don’t really intend to showcase it just yet. but i hope to do so soon, may be the end of the year or something. will really see how much talent i have in it. i’ve just been trying to find things outside of school and outside of school work to do. don’t think i’ve succeeded very well. but I guess that’s life for me, or lack thereof.

once school starts, everything will come pouring in. what’s new. just hope to manage myself better this time, and i’ve taken one small step towards it already. well, here’s to a fruitful term 2 and yes, i hope tuesday will be really fruitful.

rain and shine

[5th of march] It was suppose to be our day. Spirits were high and the belive was there. Our team was going to do it. Many things matter in a final and one of them was the lineup. We got the lineup inch perfect, as good as it could get. We were one up in this respect. Our hopes were high, sky high. But just when everything was looking bright, the sky had to turn gloomy. It was inevitable. The rain was come and hard and fast it came.

[6th of march] It rained in the morning, but we thought it would stop by afternoon. Again, we were prepared mentally, prepared to fight it out, prepared to win it for ourselves. But no, it just had to. Slightly past 12, we got the news we all didn’t want to hear – the match was postponed again. And the reason? The weather forcast said that it would be heavy thunderstorm in the mid-afternoon. Well, it never came.

It is not about the missing of lessons or the fun we had as a team. The players and the team, they prepared themselves mentally for the battle that was suppose to come. It is not as easy as you may think it is. Peaking on the day, physically and psychologically, is crucial and important. Mentally, especially, it makes a whole lot of difference. And for the school, the teachers and the students, they were expecting something. There was much support and expectations, but to top it off? “Oh the match was cancelled due to rain”. Twice.

Never the less, there are so many people i want to thank for the support thus far. 4k, the prefects, the school and even people i rarely talk to. They all gave their support and encouragement. Thanks. But it isn’t over yet.

There’s still much i have to do. May be the rain is a blessing in disguise. May be it’s better for us. Either way, psychologically, we got to keep up the tempo. We cannot afford to let it drop. Everything is in our hands now. And i will not allow it to slip out. The gold will not evade us. I will not and must not let it happen. I’m trying my best…

After every storm, the sun and its golden rays will shine… in raffles colours.