back and return

Pointing the way back…

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I’m back from hong kong, back from vietnam. i’m back from all my holidays this holidays and the sad thing is, i’m gonna be back to life.

i hate how my life revolves around school and school. i take a break from school, go to vietnam, then to hong kong. but now, i have to return to my normal life. i don’t want to. i really dont. its back to tennis trainings, to violin, to homework and last but not least to psl stuff. its not that i hate all these, i do like it. but its to an extent. quite honestly, i’m quite sick of doing routines. i’ve really found out how much i dislike routines. the routine of life and the routine of things. i don’t quite have much of a choice though.

i’m trying to convince myself of how fruitful this next year will be. and in the run up to all these events, there’s much to look forward to. even though the work is coming again, i’ll enjoy it. yeah, thats what i’ve been trying to tell myself. but when i think about it, i really loathe it. i really want a break! but every break gotta end…

so i guess, its back to all this school life. all this stuff from school, all this planning for school. i wont say i hate it, but right now, i’m not really really interested in it. i guess, i really must wait till 2008 to love it again.

the friends?

I’ve poured out my emotions once, and i don’t think i can do it again. And actually i’ve come to realise that i don’t quite like writing, because you can never capture all your emotions, simply because there are too many of them and you can never capture all your emotions, simply because they are too deep. Still… i’ll cannot not say something.

This trip again has brought about friendship. The first time i’ve experienced the value of friendship at a mature age must  really be in july when i went to taiwan. this time, its the second time and i think i’ve made closer friends this trip. may be it had to do with the age gap the last time. may be its because i’ve got home stay this time. i do not really know. but i feel as though i’ve made closer friends. and i say feel because i’m not absolutely sure either. it just feels this way. but the funny thing is that i dont feel as sorrowful as i did the last. may be i’ve learnt to cope with saying good bye. i do not really know. i just have not weeped as much or felt as sad this time round. but there is still that sense of losslessness in me.

yet what has happened to the friendships from taiwan? i’ve stopped talking to them and when i see it, i realise its because there’s no practical or emotional need to talk with them. but why? haven’t there been stories of pen pals from overseas as well? may be it has to do with the age gap, may be because of the age gap i dont find the emotional need. its quite sad, i know, that after all the tears in taiwan, it has come down to this. the thing is, i wonder if this friendship at vietnam will turn out this way. i really hope not. and i’m trying to make an effort to ensure it doesnt. but i don’t know. i keep wondering if it’ll turn out the same way. although, this time i’ve felt more attached in terms of friendship, so i dont know if the outcome will be different.

and now i’ve got nothing to say. all the times and moments are pouring back to me, and i’m speechless. for now, this is all i guess. i just know that this trip has been a weird one, one that i cannot put into words all the things and experiences that has happened. i’m not even sure i can remember all of them.

Giving Thanks

Thanks to all those viets.

Thanks for all the memories and times together, happy or sad.

Thanks for thanking me.

Thanks to all those Singaporeans for thanking me as a person.

Those thank you really mean a lot to me.

Thanks

Thank you

Vietnam!

This is one post in Hue, Vietnam.

It’s flooding here, with knee deep waters. we’re all stuck at home and its a struggle to keep yourself occupied. but otherwise its been fun. its the first time i’ve been in a flood and its quite an experience. interesting at least.

everything else has been great. things are not necessarily as organised here as back home, it may not be as clean as back home, but i think its what i came here for – to experience something different. and i think i got what i wanted. so its been really fun and great being here.

This is from Hue, Vietnam!

Immerse

i’m excited!

in fact, i’m so excited i’m thinking about so much stuff now.

thinking about what willwouldcancouldpossiblyplassiblymaymaynot… come

so much so that i couldn’t sleep last night and this morning.

its always the same bed time story…

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i woke up 3 hours earlier than i wanted to.

and of course when you’re excited, but there’s nothing to do but wait,

time just seems to pass…

so…so…so…slow…

well, it seems the time has almost just about arrived!

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its gonna be 14 days away from home

to another home in hue, vietnam.

thanks for the well-wishes, you-know-who-you are,

i’m touched that there are those of you who actually wished me well.

it’s the first time…

thanks.

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i don’t think i’ll be in for a rough time,

though typhoons, floods and heavy rain are expected there,

i think i’ll be able to cope with these.

in fact, i’m looking forward to it,

to the fun and experience,

and maybe the independency of this all…

you know me…

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for those of you out there,

enjoy your holidays…

i’ll enjoy mine!

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what a time!

(in 3…2…1…)

FAREWELL & GOODBYE

rumble jumble

its a weird feeling.

it’s a lost feeling.

i’m going away for 14 days, yet i dont feel as though i am.

i’m feeling excited, yet i dont feel as though i am.

it’s just one day to departure, yet i dont feel as though it is.

what am i feeling now? i don’t know.

its probably mixed, muddled and blurred.

wait… blurred?

!excitable

Destination: Hue, Vietnam

Purpose of travel: Overseas Immersion Programme

Mood: excited

Status: Bring it on