What more can i say? its the last week of school for 2007. That’s the last.
And the beginning. Well, OIP PSL comm ic, Tennis season. its all just starting… and its already hectic. there’s so much committments to juggle – tennis and psl. thats ri life i guess. but i cant say im not looking forward to it. its going to be an exciting year. i hope.
have fun!
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i wouldn’t say i’m not disappointed. to say i’m not disappointed is lying. i certainly am. it all boils down to expectations again. i expected to do better than what i got, but i didn’t. most certainly i’m disappointed with my lit, above all and then there was maths and english. but then again, whats the point of being disappointed? there’s little i can do now, there’s little you can do now. exams are not everything, if u want to console yourself. but getting the marks right in exams is something. after taking countless exams, thousands of tests, the time one will do well is when he learns. when he learns what is the secret behind exam – its not just about knowing your stuff.
i’ve learnt alot this end of year. its not about substance, its about quality. and to reach that quality, its not about complexity, its about getting what the examiner wants. understanding the question doesn’t just apply to english comprehension. it applies to ss, lit, history and practically every question you have been asked. and understanding the question isn’t just about answering the question. its about understanding what the examiner is looking for in the answer. its a guessing a game, no doubt – you’ll never know if you got what the examiner was looking for till its too late. but if you can hit that, you’ll hit your mark and marks.
once you’ve guessed what the examiner wants, its about answering them. you run two risks. you either answer the question simply and risk getting low marks, or answer it profoundly and risk getting low marks. simplicity is not always bad. being too complex may not do you good. the essay becomes foggy and things become unclear. yet being too simple may be too simple. so its best you keep the simplicity and think of good points. i’ve realised it really isnt about how “chime” you sound, its about how simple yet deep your argument is.
today may not be the happiest of days. my parents certainly are not happy either. but i hope i’ll learn from all this and put it to good use. it really isnt that difficult. not when you have gotten the real idea behind exams.
Have you heard
the spit spattering
of rain?
Have you seen
the rampaging attack
of rain?
Have you felt
the sharp wet jabs
of rain?
Rain Rain.
The rain’s just passed,
And the leaves are wet,
The branches are damp.
The sun’s out again,
Its rays,
A bright golden.
The thin mist,
Floating in the distance,
Amongst the trees and buildings.
Is this a new lease
Of life?
this little chat in the past 2 hours has really made me realise a lot about humans and my friends.
people are really so complex, some for the better others for the worse.
i feel as if i’ve understood myself and others.
this is going somewhere…
now its really over. it has come to the end of the end for this academic year. wow.
when i think back at my end of years, i really wish i dont.
i took too many risks that i dont think paid off. why did i?
its really over now. and i dont want to think about it. whats the point?
but i really must think back at what i’ve done.
so here it is:
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english – i spent too much time on my compre. getting the questions right and hopefully the answer. but when it came to commentry, i felt rushed. i felt as if time was running out. and so, i dont think i wrote a very wonderful piece of commentry. i know i have the ability to, but i just dont think it worked out.
social studies – i dont think i quite answered the question. and then the risk i took was to choose the essay about non-military NS. i didn’t know what it was, but i still chose it. and then, i may have just contradicted myself in the essay and unless i so happen to smoke my way through, which i dont think i could have, i wouldnt do too well.
chinese – the biggest stupidity ever. the tian xie han zhi had the meaning of the word in brackets and i was suppose to fill in the word which matched the meaning. now definitions of chinese words often come in like one ci yu comma and then another ci yu ( something , something). my brain told me that that was a multiple choice question, that i was suppose to choose one of the two. what brainlessness.
chemistry – i think i had some confidence in this. i dont quite remember any huge errors i made. but there were definitely lots of small ones. i just hope there isnt too many of them.
maths – what a killer. such stupidity again. i finished first 3 pages of the maths paper quite quickly and easily. and there were only 7 pages in total. so i thought okay, im quite safe considering i still had more than an hour. the fourth page had over 5 questions on it and each was a killer. and what did i do? i felt as if i still had time… still had time… still had time…
history – i think this is the best so far. seems quite alright. except for the way i used the test of reliability. my friends said i was wrong and that the way i used it was wrong. i hope not. or else my essay would not get more than 20. what a waste it would be.
physics – it was okay i think. there were some questions i wasnt sure or didnt know how to do. but i dont think i will die that badly. hopefully it pulls up my grades though.
literature – this is the best of all. i finished the comparitive essay and i was so happy with what i wrote. i looked at the unseen. i had thought before this that i should learn how to do the prose in case something in poetry caught me. and boy did it. i dont know why i chose to do the poem even though i didnt understand it. and worse, the question asked about the thing i didnt understand – carousel. i didnt know what it was with my amazing vocabulary. yet i still stubbornly went to do the poem. wow.
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its all over now. and its pointless worrying about it.
but when i look back, i wish i hadnt been so dumb.
its not as if i dont know or i didnt study. i did.
its just that i took risks and this really wasnt quite calculated risks.
i dont know why i was so dumb.
ah well…
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its 12 or near 12.
tomorrow is physics and i feel like sleeping.
but i feel i should be more hardworking and do a bit more practice questions.
yet my brain and heart is already sleeping.
how?
i know im gonna hate myself tomorrow when i sit for the paper and then go:
if only…
but each time i never learn and each time i hate myself.
why do i always do this?
then i make excuses for myself. Saying:
all this mugging has got into me.
my brain is dead from all this mugging.
etc.
its all rubbish.
why am i such?
its pissing.
